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Friday, 06 June 2008

  • Ok. What to talk about? Have you ever had that feeling where you just feel bad for no reason at all. I always feel that way now...I dont know its probably because people are just trying to do everything to bring me down. Or perhaps im just htinking that way so I easily get hurt. Ive spent most of my nights going to sleep tearing, and whats sad is I cant even cry out loud becasue I dont know Im afraid someone will hear me, and theyll ask me whats wrong and I wouldnt know what to say to them.

    Im here at a computer shop with my cousins, and what can I saw I spend my days here a lot. Every night till like one in the morning....hahah you can call me obssessed but hey its fun....plus I have me some EYE CANDY. Fosho fosho. It makes me feel like a kid again when I see the guy that makes my heart skip a beat and then I cant sleep because Im too busy thinking of him....and whenever someone does say his name gosh damn it makes me laugh like a crazy person. Seriouuslyy thoooo! Ahhh IM depressed and stressed....Im leaving I cant feel this way...i dont need another reason to stay... I need reasons to go!! If only people understoood! I feel alone again......I cant even tlak to anyone about it and when i talk about it it makes me tear up and its like im a barrel I dont know thats whats on my mind and it may not make anysense but thats how it hurts in a place where even I cant find.

     

    I still feel like im running away from relationships...men ddont mix with me well. Or then again BOYS...BOYS WILL BE BOYS. im kinda talking to him right now so byyeeeeee. LMAO!

     

Tuesday, 03 June 2008

  • new song....LeonaLewis.

    I just can't believe you're gone
    Still waiting for morning to come
    Wanna see if the sun will rise
    Even without you by my side (ooh yeah)

    When we had so much in store
    Tell me what is it i'm reaching for
    When we're through building memories
    I'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

    Chorus:
    They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (plans we made)
    They can take the music that we'll never play
    All the broken dreams
    Take everything
    Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
    They can take the future that we'll never know (no no)
    They can take the places that we said we would go
    All the broken dreams
    Take everything
    Just take it away (oh oh), but they can never have yesterday

    You always used to stay
    I should be thankful for everyday
    Heaven knows what the future holds
    Or atleast how the story goes (but I never believed them 'til now)

    I know i'll see you again i'm sure
    No, it's not selfish to ask for more
    One more night, one more day
    One more smile on you face
    But they can't take yesterday

    Chorus:
    They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (no no)
    They can take the music that we'll never play (they can take the music that we'll never play)
    All the broken dreams (oh, my broken dreams)
    Take everything (take everything)
    Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (oh oh oh)
    They can take the future that we'll never know (we'll never know)
    They can take the places that we said we would go (huh oh oh)
    All the broken dreams (all the broken dreams)
    Take everything (take everything)
    Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

    I thought our days would last forever (but it wasn't our destiny)
    'Cause in my mind, we had so much time
    But i was so wrong
    Now i can, believe that
    I can still find the strength in the moments we made
    I'm looking back on yesterday

    Chorus:
    They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (ooh ooh)
    They can take the music that we'll never play (no)
    All the broken dreams (all the broken dreams)
    Take everything (take everything)
    Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (yesterday)
    They can take the future that we'll never know (yeah ah)
    They can take the places that we said we would go (that we said we would go)
    All the broken dreams (all our broken dreams)
    Take everything (take everything)
    Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (they can never hace yesterday)

    Ooooh...
    (All the broken dreams take everything)
    But they can never have yesterday

Sunday, 01 June 2008

  • So I haven't updated in like what? A couple of years, and most of which is because I had nothing to say, or because I had so much to say I didn't know how to put it in words. Right right? My life is coming to a drastic change, AGAIN. I dont know whether to rejoice or cry. It's suppose to be good that I'm going back....Back to the people I love and care about....people who listen and give a damn about me, and yet it seems so complicated to have to move and go to a new world again...new yet old?. It is hella confusing, I dont want to be lured into this decision because of false promises, or meaningless ones....I want to go because it's whats gonna make me happier in the future. Ive got hella questions running through my mind....and some of them dont even have to do anything with this whole blog as of now.....AHhh. What can I say? Im gonna miss the people I am with here, its FAMILY. No one can ever top family, but the only thing that keeps me hanging on is the fact that going back, the friend I have are family annd that is more than enough for a lot of people. I know I'm not alone people suffer everyday, with problems that never go away. People resorting in ways to hurt themselves and do damage to themselves to make their damage life fade away or at least try to.
    But WAIT....
    Doesnt damaged mean can never be fixed?...
    I mean when something breaks you can at least fix it...
    But if something is damaged, people....they dont want it anymore.
    They either throw it away,
    or sell it by fooling someone else into thinking it can be fixed...
    But others.....Even when something is damaged
    they still keep it...Not because they collect damaged goods or anything,
    or it makes them feel better to know someone has more damage than himself,
    but the fact that it meant something and despite the damage he wont stop caring about iit.
    I dont know....Im damaged....but somehow arent we all? 

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